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Desperately Seeking Serenity

jogyesa-buddha-btOn their knees, shoulders pushed forward, head bent towards the floor they prostrate themselves. Their prayers rise like incense smoke towards the gold Buddhas along the altar. I peek in through the jade and carmine filigreed portals hesitant to intrude, yet needing to partake in the timeless tranquility of the room. The light has just broken in Seoul, South Korea tinting the welkin lavender, silhouetting the multi-inclined roof of the Jogyesa Temple. Among the sleek skyscrapers the shrine’s squat structure and blue ceramic tiled gables almost disappear. Its sonorous bell, clanging to greet the new day, captures my attention. Once I enter through the iljumun, the outside world falls away. None here furtively check email, tweet their experience, or surreptitiously update their status. I look at the shoes laid out on the steps — sneakers, boots, flip-flops, jeweled sandals — waiting patiently for their owners. Even they have an air of sweet resignation. The cacophony of modernity withers as I enter the main hall. 

jogyesa-dawn-btUncertainly I fold down to the prayer pillow and close my eyes. I listen to the murmured chant cascading in rolling waves across the chamber. No one tells me what to supplicate for or what incantations to recite. I allow the measured cadence to encompass me. This is not the strained stillness of a cathedral but the sedate hum of equanimity. I attempt meditation, calming my breath, centering my mind, focusing on my elusive chakra. “What a fantastic soundtrack this would make,” my inner imp says. “Perfect white noise music.” I hush the voice by swallowing hard and bending my head forward. Notwithstanding, my natural tendency vacillates towards instantaneous pursuits. “Did I get a reply from that editor yet? Is it too soon to revamp my profile? Have I gotten any more views on that new pic I posted yesterday? I must watch that video from last night….” The monotone is insistent; the more forcibly I try to quieten it the louder it gets.

jogyesa-happy-btRestless, I wander around the courtyard. I regard the happy Buddha statue and the ancient pine tree with envy — dealing in immutabilities they have no requirement for instant gratification. I, on the other hand, struggle with being left out of the loop. Staying relevant takes priority. As information, jargon, and processes advance I lag in the catch up. I am still mastering yesterday’s news, last month’s computer program, the year before’s slang. I hear songs sung a decade ago and excitedly present them to friends as innovative discoveries. I bestow books written the previous century like new birthed puppies to coworkers. I like to compose full sentence text messages. Lately the universe seems to be passing by in a whirl while I scrabble at the edges. Though I am able-bodied and vigorous minded, I am growing old-fashioned. I ascertain words like “periscope,” “snap,” and “squad” in sentences that make no sense. I am developing into the crabby senior citizens I used to deride when they shook their heads at me, declaring, “You whipper snappers don’t know a good thing when you see it. In my day we used to have real music, real films, real literature….” Is there something wrong with me or society that the harder I run the farther I fall behind?    

jogyesa-candles-btA homeless man droops on a bench near the pagoda. As worshippers pass him they bow hands pressed to lower abdomen. He takes no notice. A monk comes by, rests with him, chats in a low rumble. I watch the vagrant’s jittery legs slacken, his twitching palms come to rest upon his lap as he apprehends the cenobite. I understand his anxiety. Sanity seems a toe hold away from the precipice. Approaching the offering stand I remain unsure what to wish for. More concentration? Tidy reasoning? A transfiguring incident? Instead I light a joss stick and send off an orison of gratitude. Perhaps I am not au courant with tidings. I may not have an arsenal of acronyms at my disposal. Trends will continue to evade me. Nevertheless, I am beholden to eternal truths. I shall go on believing that the things of utmost importance will be lasting. In case I miss it now, these matters of consequence will find me at the opportune period.

jogyesa-lights-btGazing at the vapor wisps ascending into the brightening sun, I consider how my inner growth has transpired through archetypal interactions. Fads, vogues, whims have often turned my head but never swayed my passion, nor unnerved my core. With every invention insisting it is a classic, however, it is difficult to determine what will fade and what will abide. In the meantime, I strive to be vital without succumbing to futile madness. The gong tolls in dulcet tones, its echoes advising me that absence from social media for a few hours should cause no regret. Strolling Jogyesa’s perimeter I encounter three novices sweeping the monastery steps. Their movements are deliberate, composed, subdued, reminding me I will repent if I do not soak in the present serenity. This sacred place has conspired to grant me a few fleeting minutes when I am free from obligations, a space into which the ceaseless clamor of headlines and dispatches does not intrude. I am a fool to allow common hubbub to interfere. All the same, the awakened metropolis’ shops and busy streets beckon me to explore them. My phone buzzes with unheeded alerts.

jogyesa-detail-btI force myself to delay leaving. I admire the self-control of Jogyesa’s patrons. They are immersed in their devotions, able to separate their spiritual and quotidian lives. While quantity trumps quality, likability equals worth, and income is tied to visibility, I have to keep shouting into the internet’s black hole. A fallen tree is only important if someone gleans its topple. That tree becomes essential when everyone perceives its demise. In my efforts to be the recognized utterance, balance — essential to my well-being, crucial to the Buddhist culture — is suffering. I can no longer summon equilibrium from within. Increasingly I must seek out pockets of peace where repose is imposed upon me. As the haze dims into a grey miasma, locals scurry out to begin their hectic schedules. I linger, eager to be near the zen Jogyesa tenders.jogyesa-temple-bt


TRAVEL NOTE:

The chief shrine of South Korea’s Sion Buddhism, Jogyesa offers a temple stay for visitors which allow guests to experience the life of a twenty-first century monk. The cultural program incorporates various traditional activities such as tea ceremonies, nature walks, and conversations with resident mendicants all designed to educate the curious, regardless of faith, about living a tranquil, centered existence.


Do you ever feel the pressure to be constantly alerted to what is happening? How do you deal with it? If you have visited any Buddhist temples and have a story, please share them in the comments below.


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  1. It sounds like a wonderful oasis of calm in the middle of Seoul. Finding place to get a little peace and quiet can be very important in amid the hustle and bustle of a major city.

  2. It sounds idyllic and I’d love to experience the temple stay. I’m not so driven as you, nor do I write such beautiful prose. There’s always a price. 🙂 I’m relatively good at ignoring the ping when my phone needs me, though not for too long in case it’s the offspring 🙂 I recognise and smile at many of the symptoms though.

    • 🙂 Perhaps the lure of the digital is a generational thing. I feel sometimes that those who grew up knowing a world that wasn’t inundated by the internet or tech gadgets have a healthy ability to do without them. Thank you for your beautiful words.

  3. Wonderfully recorded experience! I must confess that I couldn’t feel inspired to write such an ethereal piece though I have visited Buddhist shrines in Leh and Rumtek Monastery in Sikkim…all I could see was how differently they pray and how many chakras they have! They too look at the tourists with the same eyes probably! All I could feel was the awe and excitement…serenity? I think it comes from immersing yourself in the experience and spending a lot of time at such places, which you seem to have done.
    Thanks for sharing captivating images too. 🙂

    • Thank you. I so agree with you about having that sense of awe and excitement when visiting certain religious sites. So many of these places seek that reaction on purpose through the use of grand architecture and stunning views. Jogyesa, however, is so small and intimate and such a part of the city that I could slip into its tranquility more easily. Thanks so much for sharing your thoughts about this with me!

  4. I don’t think you need to catch up with anyone as you’re setting your own trends.
    I really liked the effect of the “Korean Temple Chant Bell” as I read your post. Often, I might have found background music distracting, but this excerpt really sets the tone.
    I definitely feel the pressure of the moment. I think I would need to spend a lot of time immersed in your temple experience to be able to let myself go. One visit wouldn’t make much of a dent.

    • What a wonderful compliment! That is so kind of you. We go about our days so differently now that digital devices are ubiquitous. It tends to be the go-to in any pause and it is difficult to break out of that mentality. In regards to the sound effects…I am tentatively trying it out as a different experience for my readers. Thanks for letting me know what you thought of it. As I choose the background tones I try to keep in mind not only what will jive with my essay but also what will not be distracting to the experience.

      • I’m just “calling it as I see it,” as they say.
        I know exactly what you mean about being “connected,” though. I’ve refused to get a smart phone, but I think it’s almost worse, as I’m a slave to opening up my laptop.
        I thought your choice of music worked nicely. Usually, when I hear something come up automatically, I’m desperately looking to see where I can click off the advertisement. Pleasantly, I didn’t have that sensation at all.

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